The Way It's Supposed To Be

Sometimes I can imagine a world I create for myself in which there are no large masses of belongings. I go get groceries for dinner every day. Any book I need or want is at the library. There's no stockpiling of clothes, I only wear what I buy on the one shopping day per clothes season - no more, no less. I'm thin, strong, straight, adored, confident, drive a kick-ass car, work where? house has at least one vase of fresh flowers on display at all times. People come to my house to visit. I have places for them to sit! I never bitch or nag or complain - my voice is soft and even, my skin is smooth, my hair is always neat and straight. And I smoke like a crazy person!